Sunday, October 28, 2007

Time Change?

Someone forgot to tell my computer AND VCR that the 'fall back' hour change doesn't happen until NEXT weekend.

To top it off, we have 2 clocks that run on batteries and BOTH of them were losing their batteries and running slow...

I spent all of Sunday an hour behind the times - not realizing that the computer, VCR and the two battery clocks were wrong...

I have since fixed them, but now it is going to have to be ME who remembers to change them again all NEXT weekend!

On another note - I have been very lax in thanking I-Con for my duck!! I had seen these ducks popping up on other sites and then I got one!!

I will have to say though, the post mark on the envelope was September 21st and I didn't receive it until October 10th!! Quite the LONG journey to get here - 19 DAYS!!!

Thanks I-Con for thinking of me!

Saturday, October 06, 2007

10 Months today...

Well today is our 10 month LID anniversary. It has been 22 months since we started on THIS path to create our family.

It is a long time.

I am fed up.

I know I should be happy that I am this far along, but I am not.

Are we EVER going to get there?

Sometimes it really doesn't feel like it. Actually, the adoption doesn't feel real.

We ran around and filled out all sorts of paperwork. We got poked and prodded. We got letters, interviewed and judged, we made our homes super clean and attained approvals and then nothing...


Unfortunately for us, our LID always seem to fall around the time that another PITIFUL referral batch is released. It really doesn't bode well for our enthusiasm for this process.

I know that there are people in this program who are behind us and are thinking - What does SHE have to bitch about - I wish I was at 10 months...I know they think that because I used to think that too...not so much anymore.

There are parents who are out there who already have their children from China who try and tell us that THEY know what we are going through. They might have had to wait 10 months for their referral and/or they might have had to wait a few months for the SARS thing to blow over. There was ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel for them. At this point, I can't even see the tunnel, let alone the light that may or may not be at the end of it.

There is NO WAY that they can have ANY idea what it is like for someone with a December '06 LID. I can't even get a straight answer from our agency about when APPROXIMATELY our referral might come. What we have been told has been changed and lengthened more times then I care to repeat.

When we started, our agency told us if we started right then (January '06), we would have our baby by July '07 YUP - that is what they said. That is what pulled us in. That is what kept us in. Well July '07 has come and gone and we are not any closer to our baby - IF WE ARE LUCKY, WE MIGHT HAVE A BABY BY JULY '10.

I would also like to say Happy 10 months to our friends and travel mates Dolores & Shawn!!

There is an upside to the super long wait - and that is the people that we have connected with. That is the only thing that is keeping us going. This community is so great and so supportive and we are VERY happy that we have found ourselves here - otherwise I fear it might have been in a rubber room...