Monday, October 25, 2010


At work I have a locker in the change room that I used when I went to the gym – DON”T LAUGH!!! I haven’t used the locker in…a while.

I really didn’t even know what was the in the locker as it has been so long.

The “been so long” part was a problem. I had absolutely no recollection of what the combination was for the lock – NONE, nope, nada. That was about 2 years ago.

Last week, I was walking down the hallway at work and the combination for my lock just popped in my head – JUST LIKE THAT!! I don’t know where it came from or even if it was the right combination. I headed over to the locker room and after trying a few different locks (as I couldn’t ‘quite’ remember which locker it was either) BOOM – It opened!!

I was actually quite stunned that it opened and then excited to see what was in there – or not excited if it was stinky gym clothes from a couple of years ago. The excitement didn’t last long. There was nothing to get excited about in there. I kept repeating the combination over and over in m head until I got back to my desk so that I could write it down.

Funny thing about memory, I can still remember my high school locker combination like it was yesterday... 7-57-34

Monday, October 18, 2010


When I was little I remember the 'little' bird around all the time. They were kind of a mousy brown and hopped around. I later discovered that they were called Chickadees. They were so cute and so small and EVERYWHERE!! I don't however remember the black and white ones as shown here in this picture.

As you get older, your focus changes on things. I suppose I didn't notice the little birds anymore. I am sure that they were there, I just didn't notice them or pay attention to them.

Life goes on and then it doesn't.

In October 2001 my dad died. It was very sudden and very unexpected and he was far too young. His wishes were to be cremated. We honoured those wishes. There is a cemetery not far from here that has scattering grounds. A lovely wooded ravine type area. There is a platform built that juts out over the ravine. From here is where you can scatter the ashes of your loved ones. This is what we chose to do for my dad.

As the ashes were being scattered and the tears were rolling down my face I saw a bunch of little tiny birds exactly like the one pictured above. I don't remember noticing them before - with this colouring. But there they were - LOTS of them happily flitting around. Now every time I see one of those birds, I think of my dad.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

My brother

My brother is wonderful. He is sitting beside me and making me say this.
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Saturday, October 09, 2010

Long Week

This had to have been the longest week ever. You know it is going to be a long week when on Monday I kept thinking it was Thursday. Again on Tuesday I thought it was Thursday.

When Thursday actually arrived, I thought it was Friday...sigh...

Friday finally did arrive though and it was a long day at work and to make everything so much better, I developed a cold just in time for our long Thanksgiving weekend!

Speaking of Thanksgiving, we have THREE dinners planned for the weekend and I don't have to cook any of them!!

Speaking of cooking we have implemented menu planning - we do one week at a time. I am sure many of you have been doing this forever, but this is new for us and it has been working out really well for us. I will make up the menu and the grocery list on Sundays and then shop for everything I need for the week. We have been eating better, wasting less food and emptying out our cupboards and fridge.

Speaking of shopping, I get really irritated when I find expired things on the shelf. Aren't the stocking people supposed to rotate the stock?? I am generally very good at checking the dates in the store, but sometimes one slips by me and I don't notice until I am home.

Speaking of home, I would love to stay in my pj's for the whole weekend snuggled under the BEST blanket in the world and get better. I will just take things slow and easy and enjoy the family time that we have.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!!!

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

46... - Custom comment codes for MySpace, Hi5, Friendster and more

I wasn't going to acknowledge these LID's anymore - I really wasn't. However, for some reason, this month it has been on my mind a lot.

Probably due to yesterday's post.
Probably due to blogging again.
Probably due to the summer being over and us saying we would make a long term decision.
Probably due to sending an e-mail to Dolores yesterday.
Probably due to the fact that after 46 months, how can you NOT think about it.

I will endeavor to forget again...

Tuesday, October 05, 2010


Yesterday when I was going through my Google Reader, there was a post from RQ. Generally I just glance at the title of the post and move on. Yesterdays post was titled PROJECTIONS. Again, I generally don’t click on the link and move along. Yesterday I clicked.

You can imagine my surprise when I saw OUR LID there on the screen! I was shocked. This is a first (I think ) and to say I was stunned would be an understatement. So according to RQ, a ‘good’ scenario would be that we would receive our referral in December!! WHAT?? Of course, we all know that that is NOT going to happen, but I was still shocked to see our date there.

Image courtesy of Rumor Queen

In my head I am still thinking a few years will pass before we see our referral and at that point we will decide if this is still something that we want to pursue. Things change, life changes and a 5 or 6 year wait was not something that we counted on. We have gone forward with our lives and are not in the same place that we were in January 2006 when we started this journey.

We don't know what the future will bring - we didn't think that things would happen as they have so we won't think too much of the future. We will continue to take one day at a time that we have been doing for the last four years.

Friday, October 01, 2010

How Many...

Sitting at dinner tonight I was facing the window and watched the leaves rain down. Every time the wind picked up there were more and more leaves falling. They were blowing and swirling and falling and going everywhere, including the BBQ while I was trying to cook.

It got me thinking - how many leaves are there on a tree? Seriously, how many?? Thousands?? Hundreds of thousands? I have no idea what kind of tree is in my yard – I know it is not oak or maple or elm but that is about all I know about it. I know I could Google it, but why?

My back deck is covered with leaves, the grass is covered with leaves, there are leaves EVERYWHERE and yet, the tree doesn't look like it has lost any leaves.

Aren’t you glad I started blogging again??